DOWN MEMORY LANE

sometimes I miss him so much. Its not because I still have feelings towards him after our huge break up a year ago. Its just that, there are just too much things I did with him, there are just too much memory in my mind with him.

I was finishing my work, listening to the music, and it reminded me of him. I had sing this song to him, how I am in full confidence at that time that we will be together forever. I sang it with all my heart, I cried at that moment. I also put this song on his timeline, to remind him that I love him. But it was long time ago.

Long time ago, I feel he is the one for me. I feel he is my soul, the one I can't live without. I did a lot with him. He helped me get a job, helped me getting a place to stay, move my things to the house. Helped me get along in the big city. We travel together and I even take him to meet my family. The worst thing about my break up with him is the rage from my family. I know until now, mother regretted my decision. She always liked him.

I'm writing this, not to live up the old feeling. I have no emotion towards him except that I do miss him as a friend.

This is a decision that I have made, I should not regret it. I told myself to go on with life. I will not exaggerate on the reason of our break up. As cliche as it is, its complicated. But I always pray for the best of him. 

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